Tuesday, 9AM Euphoria

Feelin' the Love?

2009-07-10T22:43:00.004-04:00

I'm so,

Crazy and alone

I've been falling for days

And at the sight of that face...

I get

Weak and nervous

All at once

Because I know this summer love

Belongs to the month

More than me

I want to hold your hand

Just for the way it would feel

I wanna hold your hand

Just for the way it would make this seem real

If I wrote about being in love with a girl

Most people would think that I'm gay

But if I wrote about being in love with you

Most people would feel the same way.

When the night's creatures have fell into ease

The sound of the forest's a delicate lull

Word is spreading like new found disease

And the hospitals are all full

And watching you sleeping is just like the seas

Toss and turn, push and pull

So I'm asking you, Darling, please

Be reasonable.

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Some loverly poems about love and summer, and occasionally summer love. Some of them may be elaborated later. And now, the final poem, which I hope you all enjoy.

He loves me,

He loves me not.

He better love me,

Or he'll get shot.

Cue Suspenseful Music

2009-06-23T21:36:00.003-04:00

I hope the suspense is killing you, Baby.

Because it's sure killing me

To see you walk into this party

All alone

But never fear

Because, come next year

I'll go off to school without you

Forgetting you, forgetting home

And I'll never have to look back on

The pain and suffering

Never have to think about the fact that the whole time,

To you I didn't mean a thing

And I wish I could say the same

That you didn't matter at all to me

But I've still got this crazy hope

That we could be,

Baby,

Next time you say the suspense is killing you

Try to mean it literally

And I'm not saying

That I'm bitter, or upset

My mouth is shut,

But by my glares I am implying it

I think I deserve some severance,

A pay back for all your lies

Don't worry though,

I'm not holding my breath waiting for you to apologize...

And I wish I could say the same

That you didn't matter at all to me

But I've still got this crazy hope

That we could be,

Baby,

Next time you say the suspense is killing you

Try to mean it literally

And I'm so sick of being known

As your old property

And I'm too tired to care

About what you meant to me

We're so over

As everyone can see

So now I'm going to leave

Now we'll both be happy

And I wish I could say the same

That you didn't matter at all to me

But I've still got this crazy hope

That we could be,

Baby,

Next time you say the suspense is killing you

Try to mean it literally

Try to mean it literally.

Traffic Surfing

2009-06-09T20:18:00.000-04:00

What am I waiting for?

This is what I ask myself daily

And half-heartedly I try to respond

Yeah, this is why all my luck is failing

And I am shedding all of the ideals that I've donned

My feet are to the grass

Like the sun in the sky

I just go around and around

Never think to ask why

And if the sun asked why

Well we'd all die

And you're tempting me

To come walk into traffic

You're tempting me

To go out of my comfort zone

You're tempting me

To trust where I'm going

You're telling me

The road I'm on is home

And these gold and silver days

Have fallen pray to pain

And the hardest questions

Are the ones I'm asking myself

And the sun fell down in rays

But today it's not the same

Because for the first time

I took my memories off the shelf

And you're tempting me

To come walk into traffic

You're tempting me

To go out of my comfort zone

You're tempting me

To trust where I'm going

You're telling me

The road I'm on is home

Then I am a child again

And I'm falling into a brand new day

I can really act wild again

And you're slowly walking away...

And you're tempting me

To come walk into traffic

You're tempting me

To go out of my comfort zone

You're tempting me

To trust where I'm going

You're telling me

The road I'm on is home

And you're no longer my crutch

And I'm no longer waiting

You suspected as much

And the screen is fading...

And you're tempting me

To come walk into traffic

You're tempting me

To go out of my comfort zone

You're tempting me

To trust where I'm going

You're telling me

The road I'm on is home

Just Remember to Take Deep Breaths

2009-06-09T20:14:00.000-04:00

I'm taking deep breathes

Keeping my temper in check

Going backwords from ten

Starting over again

Cause my fists are still clenched

Tightly here on the dining table

And you don't even notice

I'm biting my tongue

It's over, it's done

The war has been won

Via out of court lawyers

They're just out of court liars

I could slit my wrists

To the sound of all your complaints

"You're a fake, You're a fake"

I could just sit

And glare at you all

I'm not a puppet or doll

And I'm tired.

Tap tap goes my knuckle on your door frame

You don't want to talk to me and I don't want to play your game

Shut up and go away

That's all I have to say

I'm biting my tongue

It's over, it's done

The war has been won

Via out of court lawyers

They're just out of court liars

I could slit my wrists

To the sound of all your complaints

"You're a fake, You're a fake"

I could just sit

And glare at you all

I'm not a puppet or doll

And I'm tired.

I'm dying Baby, absolutely dying

Forget about crying Baby; I wasted my life crying

I'm not patient enough any more

To waste my time trying

On some impossible cause

(We all know that I'm lying)

I'm biting my tongue

It's over, it's done

The war has been won

Via out of court lawyers

They're just out of court liars

I could slit my wrists

To the sound of all your complaints

"You're a fake, You're a fake"

I could just sit

And glare at you all

I'm not a puppet or doll

And I'm tired.

Your sitting there,

Oblivious

To me clenching my teeth

And flinching when you make a joke

And inside I'm begging you to stay silent

Because my heart can't take

Me holding this in for much longer

I'm putting a new address

On this old loneliness

No longer keeping it inside

I will never have to hide

The times I've lied

Or my own pride

Now that I've died

I can reside

Away from the sighes you've sighed

And closer and closer to me stiching your mouth shut.

To My Least Dearest Christopher...

2009-06-09T20:04:00.002-04:00

Bruises cover

Your face and your arms

You were living off ink and

Lucky charms

Empty bottle of ADs

Lying on your nightstand

They never worked, just made you feel like

Dying again

The blood in your veins

Pounds as the noose cuts off

Your circulation

Now would be a good place

And time to have

A revelation

Then the rope snaps

And the room spins into hectic pitch black

Your best friends runs in

And begs you,

Please come back

Oh, will you please come back

Thrashing in your sleep

Even you realize that

You are in way too deep

It's a losing battle and,

You just need to calm right down

Don't fight the light

Just fight the darkness

And soon the rest will come around

A loaded gun

Painful in every retrospect

Tonight's been fun

For everyone else

Hey are you done?

The bar is, shutting down

Yeah you're done

With this

Blackhole of a town

The sound system here is rad

Or so every tells you

ID checks are bad

Sounds like your kind of place

You're getting mad

At the lights that are blinking

Cause they've got you thinking

Of your time spent in the

Black

Black...

Thrashing in your sleep

Even you realize that

You are in way too deep

It's a losing battle and,

You just need to calm right down

Don't fight the light

Just fight the darkness

And soon the rest will come around

Peddle to the floor

Of your car

It's very nearly midnight

And you're wishing on a star

Pay no attention to the lights

Flashing green, red, and gold

These are your last nights

Or so you've been told

Told

Your apartments empty

Which makes sense 'cause no one's living with you

Moon light pulsing through your artery's

What's a poor kid to do?

It's 11:11

And all you wish is to get to know you

They find you passed out

Under the covers

And there's every name

Of your ex-friends and ex-lovers

This is getting old

They all say it but don't help anything

Any

Thing...

Thrashing in your sleep

Even you realize that

You are in way too deep

It's a losing battle and,

You just need to calm right down

Don't fight the light

Just fight the darkness

And soon the rest will come around

Hear there voices

Know your choices

Nobody

Can stop you now ('Cause you're too far gone)

Trust this douvet

Where you'll

Always stay

Not to give you away (Until the tiresome dawn)

Dawn

Thrashing in your sleep

Even you realize that

You are in way too deep

It's a losing battle and,

You just need to calm right down

Don't fight the light

Just fight the darkness

And soon the rest will come around

And God knows they'll come around

Think of all the liquor you have downed

Up on the stage

In a rage

You know your homebound

Fly to the floor

And ask for more

And getting it the form

Of going black

Of never coming back

Never coming back

NEVER COMING BACK

Silly Colour Song

2009-06-04T22:03:00.004-04:00

Red.
Red is the colour of the blood beating through my heart right now
But Babe, you don't carry anyhow
Cause Red is also
The colour of love
Like the kind you have for her
She's like some sort mind reader
Keeping you amazed

Orange.
Nothing rhymes with orange.
Such a fickle word
Like those that I have heard
Up from my bedroom floor

Gold.
Cause it's classier than just plain
Yellow.
But the truth still remains
It's exactly the same
As her perfect summer hair

Green.
With envy at your new love,
Because my tongue's tied in a knot
Why did she have to be so hot?
Just Kiddin!
(No I'm Not)

Blue.
How I feel when she's with you.
I'm sad and sobbin'
Your hearts black as a robin
But what am I gonna do?

Purple.
Like a haze watching over me
Cause now I'm finally startin' to see
That the boy sittin' next to me
In underclassmen trigonometery
Is
Gorgeous

Done.
My rainbow relationship
Is over, Enjoy your girl, because her brother is too!
One.
I find another to be with
Because I know I ain't wastin' my time on you.

At the end of every rainbow is a pot of gold.

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So, this is a silly song I wrote, just messing around. It's not serious at all, just rhyming about colours. XD

2009-05-25T00:10:00.003-04:00

Virginia was so beautiful

With her mane of long read hair

Her blue eyes looking up above

Her voice bouncing through the air

The summer sun entangled

Cascading down on you and her

Who could have predicted

What was to occur?

It was a summer of true love

It was a summer of pain,

It was a summer of sunshine,

It was a summer of rain.

It was a summer that we'll never forget

No matter how hard we try.

It was a summer I'll cherish

Until the day I die

Virginia was so courteous

To all the people that she met

The way she smiled at everyone

Oh, I never will forget

The way that she was colour-blind

And an amazing friend

The way that she, so tragically,

Met an early end.

It was a summer of true love

It was a summer of pain,

It was a summer of sunshine,

It was a summer of rain.

It was a summer that we'll never forget

No matter how hard we try.

It was a summer I'll cherish

Until the day I die

And in the endless summer

In which she now resides

Yes, in this endless summer

Made by you and her and I

And maybe in this paradise,

We'll stay together for eternity

And in this endless rainstorm

In our black funeral clothes

The storm is passing over

As an easterly wind blows

And maybe when I sob next to you,

Virginia will look down and see

It was a summer of true love

It was a summer of pain,

It was a summer of sunshine,

It was a summer of rain.

It was a summer that we'll never forget

No matter how hard we try.

It was a summer I'll cherish

Until the day I die

No, we will never forget her

She'll always be ours

As the summer lilies,

And the golden stars

Bloom over her last bed

I know she'll meet us soon

But for now we're stuck here

Just crying in your room

Cellophane Flowers

2009-05-24T23:59:00.002-04:00

Today, I found out that my husband Ryan is the father of my (Presumably) half-sister, Rachel. Our shared mother, Jenny, is asian, whilst we are both Italian. Jenny's new boyfriend Travis is sneaking around with Ryan in front of my back.

I love my neighborhood.

2009-04-06T19:27:00.002-04:00

I'm scared that the people at my funeral

Will talk about me with opinions too strong

I'm not scared of their words being mean

I'm scared they'll talk about me wrong

Because when I am gone

They'll say the nice things I did

Whether I do them or not

We're supposed to honor our dead

It's the way that we have been taught

But who says honoring is sugar coating?

I'd rather have people not lie

Because it's people bending truths to fit their own molds

That would give me a reason to die

So tell stories of my wickedness

Of my hatred and my spite

As the way I see it, talk nicely

And I'll be burning in Hell despite.

I'm not scared of dying.

I'm scared of not living enough.

It's Been a While

2009-04-06T19:25:00.002-04:00

So, just an update. I've decided to use this for poetry purposes only, for my friends to see. If you see it here, it can count as possession evidence in front of most courts.

JustSoYouKnow!

Too Scene For Television

2008-12-30T17:47:00.000-05:00

In this passive state/Where all my fears will congregate/I can't see and I can't feel/What am I supposed to do?

In this little box/Secured with promises and locks/I can't see and I can't feel/Anything but you

Suffocating in this lightless abyss/Recreating, such unsureness/It's darkness blurred in the twilight of the flame/I will never feel the same/It's a legacy of ill fame

Crawling down/To the outskirts of town/And no questions are asked/You're just avoided/Like the plague/Falling down/The rains beating on the ground/Like the talk of the town/But no one can hear a sound

Suffocating in this lightless abyss/Recreating, such unsureness/It's darkness blurred in the twilight of the flame/I will never feel the same/It's a legacy of ill fame

But then/The clouds all part/I'm safe and sound/Feet on the ground/I look around/Anf what do I see?

Nothing but me/Without you/Nothing but me/Without you/ Nothing but me/ Without

Suffocating in this/ Lightless abyss/ Recreating such/Emptiness/It's the darkness blurred/Against the twilight of the flame/I will never feel the same

It's my legacy of ill fame.

Wow, there's a post that lived up to it's name. The really sad thing is that this drama was caused by something reasonably common.

I was just lying there, half asleep, in my cousins bed, because our power was out and my uncle said we could stay at his house while he and my aunt and cousins were away. Anyways, my mom comes in and she sees the light that I have something on my head. Lice.

So, we get the heck out there, making sure anything I had my head on is quarantined. Afterwords, we go home and end up going to the store to get some lice shampoo or whatever, as we come back we saw these two trucks from the township and we were thinking, Oh, great, we will be able to have light tonight! Alas, the sad truth was, the water maine had broken. So hear we are, unsure if we would even be able to take showers, we found we couldn't do the shampoo because you need to rinse it out after ten minutes, or else it will sting like heck.

When they finally left, it was too dark to do it, so, we tried the old mayo treatment. Apparently you mix a little of it in your hair, let it sit for an hour or so, and then rinse it out. The rinsing out was where I got the idea for the above song. I am standing in the shower, not able to see because of the steam, the fact that I am not wearing my glasses, and because the room's only light comes from candles. Plus, the drain has been plugged (long story) so the water is rising. And there I am, blind, feeling like bugs are crawling on my hair*, full of fear that one of the candles will knock over and set the room on fire, ect. And I was coughing up so much that if my fits and vision weren't impaired enough already, I was now fit for an asylum. So anyways, that is my sad tale. We finally got back our power, I am going to have my hair treated properly, and life will be a little less melodramatic.

*Okay, there's this one lifetime movie about not doing LSD, and in it there's this girl who does it, and she freaks out and thinks there are cockroaches crawling all over her, and so she goes into a closet and claws off her own skin. I felt a lot like that girl.

Just a Little Something From Wikipedia...

2008-12-29T00:06:00.000-05:00

Ye Ladies of Drury, now weep

Your voices in howling now raise

For Old Mother Neeham's laid deep

And bitter will be all your Days.

She who drest you in Sattins so fine

Who trained you up for the Game

Who Bail, on occasion would find

And keep you from Dolly and Shame

Now is laid in her Grave

Killer of the Week Club

2008-12-28T23:53:00.000-05:00

Today's Fine Specimen of Insanity-

Richard Trenton Chase, born May 23, 1950 was an American serial killer from Santa Clara County, California. He was often called "The Vampire of Sacramento" because he drank his victims blood and then ate their remains. He did this as part of a delusion that he needed to prevent Nazis from turning his blood into powder via poison they had planted beneath his soap dish. Chase had 6 known victims, and murdered and drank the blood of multiple animals. After he was arrested he died in prison, committing suicide via antidepressant over dose.

Chase suffered from many mental illnesses, including hypochondria, schizophrenia, paranoia, and the MacDonald Triad.

Green Crayon Syndrome

2008-12-28T22:56:00.000-05:00

She's beautiful/And I know what you're thinking/How typical/But trust me honey it's not/She smiles at me/Cuz she knows i'll never be/Able to /Live like this/All alone

Because/My apartments getting colder/All the kids are getting older/The sun is setting/ANd my life's walking away/I'm waking up from my favorite dreams/Falling apart, ripping at the seams/It's not fair/That it's ending this way

It makes/Me smile in the dark/Tastes just like/Summer in the park/Oh Sunshine, tell me that it's just a bad day/I wish we could go back/To the days before pitch black/Night, took us all away/Took it all away

Because/My apartments getting colder/All the kids are getting older/The sun is setting/And my life's walking away/I'm waking up from my favorite dreams/falling apart, ripping at the seams/It's not far/That it's ending this way

They may tell us/It's lies/Except the moonshine/I say its a sign/We'd better be on our toes/Cuz we all now how this/Goes/Yeah we all know how this/Goes/Yeah we all know it goes

My apartments getting colder/Some reputations are going to smolder/The sun is setting/And my doubt is walking away/I'm waking up from my favorite dreams/True happiness isn't as far as it seems/It's not fair/But it's gotta end this way/Yeah i's gotta end this way

So today it was cold. but no snow. i met people in my family for the first time at a reunion, and i realized there is nobody in my family that is actually my age. oh well, i'll just adopt a sweet twin brother who can be my best male friend. yeah, we'll be like super spies, and he'll take down all my enemies. god, this is what happens when i drink over 4 quarts of soda in an hour.

Tuesday, 9AM Euphoria

Feelin' the Love?

*Cue Suspenseful Music*

Traffic Surfing

Just Remember to Take Deep Breaths

To My Least Dearest Christopher...

Silly Colour Song

Cellophane Flowers

It's Been a While

Too Scene For Television

Just a Little Something From Wikipedia...

Killer of the Week Club

Green Crayon Syndrome

Cue Suspenseful Music